Little Mix – Shout out to my Ex

X Factor October 2016 Live Performance

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This is a shout out to my ex
Heard he in love with some other chick
Yeah yeah, that hurt me, I’ll admit
Forget that boy, I’m over it
I hope she gettin’ better sex
Hope she ain’t fakin’ it like I did, babe
Took four long years to call it quits
Forget that boy, I’m over it

Guess I should say thank you
For the “hate yous” and the tattoos
Oh baby, I’m cool by the way
Ain’t sure I loved you anyway
Go ‘head, babe, I’mma live my life, my life, yeah

Shout out to my ex, you’re really quite the man
You made my heart break and that made me who I am
Here’s to my ex, hey, look at me now, well, I
I’m all the way up, I swear you’ll never bring me down
Shout out to my ex, you’re really quite the man
You made my heart break and that made me who I am
Here’s to my ex, hey, look at me now, well, I
I’m all the way up, I swear you’ll never, you’ll never bring me down

Oh, I deleted all your pics
Then blocked your number from my phone
Yeah yeah, you took all you could get
But you ain’t getting this love no more
‘Cause now I’m living so legit (so legit)
Even though you broke my heart in two, baby
But I snapped right back, I’m so brand new, baby (I’m so brand new)
Boy, read my lips, I’m over you, over you

Guess I should say thank you
For the “hate yous” and the tattoos
Oh baby, I’m cool by the way
Ain’t sure I loved you anyway
Go ‘head, babe, I’mma live my life, my life, yeah

Shout out to my ex, you’re really quite the man
You made my heart break and that made me who I am
Here’s to my ex, hey, look at me now, well, I
I’m all the way up, I swear you’ll never bring me down
Shout out to my ex, you’re really quite the man
You made my heart break and that made me who I am
Here’s to my ex, hey, look at me now, well, I
I’m all the way up, I swear you’ll never, you’ll never bring me down
You’ll never bring me down

Shout out to my ex, you’re really quite the man
You made my heart break and that made me who I am
Here’s to my ex, hey, look at me now, well, I’m
All the way up, I swear you’ll never, you’ll never bring me down

Shout out to my ex, you’re really quite the man (You’re quite the man)
You made my heart break and that made me who I am
Here’s to my ex, hey, look at me now, well, I
I’m all the way up, I swear you’ll never bring me down (You’ll never bring me down)
Shout out to my ex, you’re really quite the man
You made my heart break and that made me who I am
Here’s to my ex, hey, look at me now, well, I (Won’t you just look at me now)
I’m all the way up, I swear you’ll never, you’ll never bring me down

You’ll never bring me down

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The Battle of the Bed

With the title of this blog post you’re either going to get it or not. The Battle of the Bed is a significant battle in a relationship. Who sleeps which side? How much space are you taking up? Who’s the secret duvet hogger? There are so many questions to this significant argument.

Now thanks to society’s “norms” and internet memes it is assumed that the female will take up more space and steal the duvet covers in the middle of the night leaving their partner freezing cold. I won’t lie to you normally that is me. 

I have a certain way that I need to lie and be comfortable in order to get to sleep. Most people do. Mine involves two pillows and then I hug a third pillow. I tuck my hair out from under me and wrap it over my shoulder. I sleep on my left hand side normally. And I take the edge of the duvet and put it between my shins so I have one leg under the duvet and the other one out (dangerous I know). 

I’m also infamous for talking in my sleep and tossing & turning. Let’s just say you need a lot of patience to sleep in the same room as me. I’ve been like it for years and nothing has changed. 

I also have the untrained skill of falling asleep very quickly. All I have to do is get comfortable and then shut my eyes and I can pretty much fall asleep. 


Last night the Battle of the Bed became all too familiar. I fell asleep as quickly as normal. (Bearing in mind that I had a two hour afternoon nap I was surprised I was still even tired). All normal so far? Well not for long. Around three o’clock in the morning I turned over in my sleep (right to left side) and fell out of bed completely. I woke up confused and with a sore side from crashing into the side of the bed as I fell. My partner was still awake and asking if I was ok. (He got a slow response because I was in sleep but alive mode). He then claimed that he hadnt been to sleep because my elbows had been sticking out right into his side. Now I can’t blame him because my elbows are super boney and pointy so I can understand that he would be able to get to sleep. However in my mind he had plenty of space because for me to turn over and fall out of bed I must have been on the very edge of my side. 

In the end being in a sleep-but-alive mode I mumbled my apologies and got back into bed and into my normal sleeping position. 

The Battle of the Bed continues…

I don’t even know…

How do I even start this post? I don’t even know. I don’t know how I feel or what I want. I suppose the best way to describe it is lonely. I am surrounded by (some) great people every day, my family are supportive and my boyfriend is my rock. I honestly don’t think I would get through everything on a day to day basis without David as my head is too much of a mess.

But still when I am surrounded by these people I still feel alone. Like no one understands how I feel all the time. I suffer with depression and anxiety and as the days pass I want to get out of bed less and less. I want to stay in a safe place where nothing can bother me. Then I won’t say things I regret, get upset over nothing, feel sick or try not to break down and cry at work or university.

The worst thing is that I don’t know how to get over this stage of my life. I have ‘breakdowns’ way too often and one day I worry that I won’t be able to recover from my breakdown. There’s only so many times I can ‘talk it out’ because it gets to the point where I can’t explain how I feel.

To do lists help but then I’m always planning for the future and I’m never living in the present. I tell myself constantly that maybe the cause of this is the stress of working 30 hours a week whilst also doing a full time degree with the pressure that my degree can affect my work. Then I also end up saying less than a year to go and then you can focus on work and have more time to switch off. Yet even with less than a year to go I still feel like it will go quickly and my mental health will deteriorate along with it.

My head is too full of stuff. Stuff to do at work. Stuff to do at university and stuff to do for university. Stuff to do around the house. etc. My mind is too busy and I can’t switch it off.

I’m posting this blog entry to make those aware around me that I appreciate everything they are doing for me but sometimes I’m not going to be walking around with a smile on my face because I feel low all the time. I’m finding it hard to get out of this permanent mood that I seem to be stuck in. So bare with me cause I don’t want to feel like this anymore but I also don’t know how I’m going to get this never ending tunnel.

Upcycling old furniture 

Upcycling old furniture is becoming more and more popular in the home design world. For those with first time homes, you are likely to be gifted with furniture from friends and family. And there’s no point trying to hide the truth but it is likely because they don’t want it anymore because its worn out, scratched up and looking a little tired.

BUT you don’t have to throw it away. PLEASE DON’T THROW IT AWAY! Unless it is super knackered and falling apart then I give you permission to throw it away. Upcycling and giving your furniture a new lease of life is super easy as long as you have the creativity and time to invest in it.untitled.png

First of all I’m going to talk about a small thin coffee table that my partner, David bought at a Hospice shop. It was a pine table and was in good condition. It was a perfect sized table for the space we had. But our colour scheme for the living room was grey, black, white and yellow with copper accessories. So pine would really stand out from the other colours. So I went to B&Q and bought 2 cans of spray paint: primer and black gloss topcoat. I loved the results and so did a very surprised David.

Total cost: £28.18

 

These stacked side tables were originally my grandparents. They had black metal legs and dark wood tops. Again, the dark wood did not fit in with our colour scheme so we decided to upcycle these too.  I used the spray paint primer and glossy black again for the tops. I also used the primer on the legs before painting on a coppery-gold colour.

 

House Update – My Living Room

Pine Coffee Table – St Michaels Hospice Furniture – £10

Valspar White Primer & Undercoat Spray – B&Q – £8.94

Valspar Interior & Exterior Black Gloss Spray – B&Q – £9.24

Stacked tables – free from family members

Valspar Interior and Exterior Black Gloss Spray – B&Q – £9.24

Craig & Rose Interior & Exterior Rich Gold Metallic Paint -B&Q  – £14.67

Yellow, white leaf pattern tea tray – Sainsburys – £2 (was £4)

Copper Lamp w/ white shade – Wilkos – £20

Copper plant pot (part of a set of 2) – Wilkos – £8

Yellow pot candle – Sainsburys – £7

Pebble pattern eyelet curtains (229 x 229) – Argos – £35

Poäng Oak Veneer Chair w/ Isunda grey cushion – Ikea – £95

Yellow geometric canvas cushion – Sainsburys – £12

Copper plant pot (set of 2) – Wilkos – £8

Coloured small draws in Oak Veneer (white, yellow & grey) – Sainsburys – £18

Light up sign w/ interchangeable letters – Sainsburys – £10

TV Stand – Facebook Buy & Sell Page – £30

JVC Surround Sound System & DVD Player – From family members – FREE

BUSH TV 50″ – Argos – £250

Nintendo Wii w/ Wii Fit – Given by Family Members – FREE

Xbox 360 – David’s owned since Brand New

Cube shelves w/ grey patterned boxes – Argos – £20 each for drawers

Grey patterned boxes set of 4 – Argos – £6

Home Hacks – Kitchen

So now I have moved house, I have some decorating to do. But mainly organising it to make my life easier. As a result I thought I would share one with you over the next couple of weeks what I’m doing with my house.
So my first hack is for the kitchen. Baking trays can take up a lot of space in a kitchen cupboard. So to clean up the space and make them easier to access use mesh magazine holders.

I bought these for £2.75 in Wilkos. And I bought one for baking trays and the other for muffin & cupcake trays.

When you need trays you just pull out the magazine holder providing ease of access.

#OOTD – Work Edition

 

This is my latest outfit for work and for those times when you want a casual but smart outfit.

I teamed rose pink jeggings with a white vest top, grey & dark metal belt and grey leather court heels and a statement flower patterned waterfall blazer. I kept everything really plain so that my blazer stood out as it is a gorgeous pattern and I wanted to focus the eye on it.

 

Get it here:

Rose Pink Jeggings

Flower Blazer

White vest

*Grey Platform court heels from New Look are discontinued

*Grey belt from Primark (Not available online)